Mexico - July 2024 - Part 1

“I am realistic – I expect miracles.” -Dr. Wayne Dyer

In July of last year, a month after receiving a life-changing diagnosis of breast cancer, I was called to go to Mexico for what was supposed to be a 10 day deep healing intensive with some very powerful shamanic practitioners. This turned into a 3 week sacred sojourn. This "call" to go to Mexico to visit Aia had come to me in a profound psilocybin journey the morning after my diagnosis. That psilocybin journey, by the way, brought me so much peace that is beyond my understanding, as well as so many gifts and insights, which I will be discussing over the next few weeks.

That trip to Mexico consisted of multiple sessions and therapies including trauma release massage, womb massage, yoni reclamation therapy, hapé ceremonies, psychic surgery, shadow work, energy work, sound healing, nature medicine, deep emotional and energetic purges, and an 8 day Silent Retreat in the middle of the Sierra Madre Mountains. The Silent Retreat included a sweat lodge (temazcal) ceremony, a 4 day fast, a mud bath ceremony, building our own mandalas in the woods and spending isolation/silent time there (literally lying on the forest floor), cacao ceremonies, prayer ceremonies, dance ceremonies, somatic movement classes, yoga, fire ceremonies, lots of journaling, teachings from some incredible teachers, a Mayan hand-poke tattoo ceremony with my channeled tattoo that represents my soul’s mission, and even a face-to-face run-in with a rattlesnake literally 3 feet from my face, hissing and rattling at me.

That whole entire process was a death (one of many) for me, a dying of an old self. 

And at times, I thought I would actually die in the mountains of Mexico with no one knowing exactly where I was and that I would not make it back home to my children and those I love. 

That whole trip was life-changing for me on so many levels. Thank you to Aia June and Ivon Sihuatl in Mexico. I am forever grateful for the BIG space they both held for me, along with Ivon’s amazing parents. Ivon and her parents were the hosts and teachers of the Silent Retreat portion of that 3 week trip.

I am still integrating the wisdom from this deeper journey into mySELF (mind/body/soul), along with the integration of the last 18 months overall. The past 18 months, have been a Soul Journey like no other and have felt like one massive roller coaster psychedelic journey, intertwined with so much beauty and expansion. And while each healing experience and deep dive into myself has brought about its own integration period, it feels like the overall integration of the whole 18 months, (perhaps 24 mos) begins now. It feels that I am emerging out of the cocoon and in that cocoon, I died and dissolved onto myself over and over again. Holy WOW. What all I have learned, uncovered, discovered, shifted, released, and reclaimed has been nothing short of miraculous. It has been a holy journey into shadow and death and life, and into love and self-love and everything in between. It has been extremely painful at times and extremely magnificent at times. But overall, it has been a beautiful journey into myself, my deeper layers of pain, the places where I was still hiding, and into the magnificence of my HEART, which is where the cancer was, on the left side of my left breast / chest and heart chakra. (I will continue to speak of this as past tense), and on the "mother" or "feminine" side of the body, which energetically represents so much.

It is so much and I can never put it all into words, but I am attempting that through my upcoming book. My hope is that this will help and inspire others on their healing journey, whether that healing journey is navigating physical illness, mental health issues, emotional issues, loss, despair, loneliness, guilt, shame, grief, unworthiness, relationship issues, abandonment wounds, attachment wounds, mother wounds, father wounds, recovery from childhood trauma, ancestral trauma, abuse, abandonment, self-abandonment, or life in general.

More to come. 

I am eternally grateful for those who held me and witnessed me through my descent + ascent of my 3rd Awakening, which led me deep into the closed off chambers of my heart. Physically there are 4 main chambers of the heart. Energetically, there are infinite chambers.

I bow in deep, deep gratitude for this whole life journey. 

For now, I leave you with some quotes from Rumi (my favorite poet), a bible scripture that has helped me through the darkest and scariest times in my life, one of my favorite Sanskrit mantras, and a video recap of some of those moments in Mexico.

“Your heart is the size of an ocean. Go find yourself in its hidden depths.” -Rumi

"These pains you feel are messengers. Listen to them." -Rumi

"The wound is the place where the light enters you." -Rumi

"Only from the heart can you touch the sky." -Rumi

“God has not given me the spirit of fear, but one of power, love, and of a sound mind.”

-2 Timothy 1:7

Lokah Samasta Sukhino Bvantu (May all beings be happy and free).

MEXICO - JULY 2024 - PART 1 (Breast Cancer Healing)